HEY EVERYONE!! @crisandjohnvs we’re sooooo gracious enough to let us four hooligans into their establishment to try and tackle 20lbs of PHORRITO! That’s right, you heard me. At a whopping 24,000 calories! Please give it a watch and let us know what you think. Link is in the bio!
Let’s do this #prayforme .
Landed in Seattle and almost immediately found ourselves getting pho 🤷🏻♀️
...But it’s raining so total validation for this “super bowl” sized serving of soup
It was pho-nominal 👌🏼
Studiacchiato un po’, ma non molto. Insomma la voglia di finire il semestre c’è e non riesco proprio a motivarmi. Per fortuna che domani è l’ultimo giorno e poi..VACANZE!! Finito cena e adesso faró skype con i miei genitori.
Cena: •brodo vegetale caldo 🍵
•caffè deca ☕️
2923 hours ago
Hello guys, guess who had CAKE AND HOT CHOCOLATE WITH WHIPPED CREAM for morning snack? This guuuurl💪🏻🍰
Therapy today went well💞
After the appointment we had a 3-hour break before the doctors appointment, so my mum and I did some shopping and had a morning snack at this BEAUTIFUL little cafe. I’m in love😍
TRIGGER WARNING (weigh in)
I’ve been feeling very unmotivated to recover these past days. Finding the motivation to recover when recovery = weight gain is really hard. I have thoughts like: “If recovery means weight gain, then I’d rather die!”, “I miss starving” and “I honestly don't mind if I die, there's nothing I want in the future”. I was really scared about getting weighed today, but still, I’m on a 1600 calorie meal plan, I can’t gain a lot of weight in 9 days... right? HAHA, GIRL YOU THOUGHT. I stepped on the scale, and I had gained so. much. weight.
I’m not going to tell you how much I’ve gained because I’m really ashamed... I know weight gain is supposed to be a positive thing, and everyone was like “WELL DONE” but I just started crying. I feel SO disgusted with myself, and my eating disorder is screaming at me. I feel kinda betrayed by my body. Like, a lot of people in recovery eat 3000+ calories a day and gain slowly (but enough) but no no, I’m eating TINY portions compared to my parents, siblings and basically everyone else, and gain a lot of weight. It’s not that I want to eat more, because eating what I do is hard enough. I just didn’t expect to gain that much while being on a meal plan that most people would LOSE weight on. Anyway, I got home, locked the door to my room, cried for like two hours in my bed refusing to unlock the door and eat lunch. After that, my mum was like: “I don’t care what you eat but you have to eat SOMETHING”, so I made oatmeal. I still feel terrible. All I want is for the number on the scale to be lower or at least the same next week😭
Sorry about the long caption, I just need to get my thoughts out and this is kinda my safe space. I love you guys, thank you for supporting me❤
Keep fighting loves💪
43103 hours ago
10k calorie chocolate challenge 🍫🤢
This one was completely different to last time around, mainly due to me overcoming binge eating since my last attempt 👊
A lot of people don’t even think about it, but for a some people it destroys their progress and their mental well being day to day!
To watch the full video and my top tips on how to overcome binge eating, along with enough chocolate to rival willy wonker... click the link in my bio 👉 @mycoach_ben 👈
I’ve never been allergic to peanuts, tree nuts only. But I started to have a sensitivity to it and then scared myself into thinking I couldn’t have peanut butter because I am allergic to soy and Lima beans. I haven’t had peanut butter since August and I’ve been missing it. This morning I had a food challenge for sesame and peanuts and I passed both! I am eating this PB cup this afternoon with no fear and it’s liberating and amazing! So happy I did this right in time for holiday cookies! #foodchallenge#foodallergies#icanhavepeanuts#ilovepeanutbutter#smallvictories#notallergictopeanuts#notallergictosesame
🌟Yesterday was not a good day.
I woke up feeling like shit because of the binge I had the day before. I felt bloated, my ED is telling me I’m fat and I’m not worthy to eat today, or that I needed to severely restrict to makeup for it; I needed to go to the gym and do a bunch of cardio.
So what did I do?
I went out for a light lunch with my boyfriend. I went to the gym and trained back but did 0 cardio. And I am going to have dinner.
Yesterday was not a good day, but today will be. It is a new day and we are allowed to move forward without dwelling on the past and the mistakes we made.
It is important to recognize that those voices in your head telling you to restrict or binge or purge are not from you — they’re from your ED. Once you learn to distinguish your own voice and ED, you can start to separate yourself and disobey those thoughts.
Recovery is not a linear journey — we will make mistakes and thats okay. We need to just move on and pick up right where we left off. ✨
Ho appena finito l’unica lezione della giornata. Mi fa un po’ strano avere cosí pochi impegni universitari. Adesso sono sul bus per andare in palestra. Sono riuscita a mangiare solo una mela.
2418 hours ago
ORGANIC TOMATO PASTE a single ingredients very low in salt and essential for your healthy and warm Mediterranean Stews. It has a very balanced taste, don’t miss it in speciality shops near you .... #organictomato#tomatopaste#organictomatopaste
Vanilla protein oats with flax, banana, pb/pb2 and chia for breakfast this morning 🍌🥜
Have a late shot today so had time to drink my coffee in peace, do some stretching and then cook my oats on the hob this morning✨
2629 hours ago
Met with my nutritionist yesterday. She said I’m not doing very good at following my meal plan and I
Keep losing weight. Unintentionally of course. Im not restricting. I don’t know why, maybe it’s because I’m running around some with my friends, but, who knows. To me, meal plans just seem so stupid. Why do I need 4 of protein at lunch? Why do I need fats and grains at breakfast? Can’t I just eat whatever I want? It’s stressful sometimes. I wish I had free will.
Ciao ragazze 💕 Come state? Io non bene. Mi sono accorata che mi stavo prendendo in giro e mi scuso perchè stavo prendendo in giro pure voi. Sto avendo una ricaduta. Ho perso già tanto peso e piú vedo sulla bilancia i numeri scendere, piú voglio dimagrire ancora. Ne ho parlato con i miei terapeuti ieri e anche loro confermano questa cosa. Sono molto preoccupati perchè il mio BMI adesso è sceso nella categoria critica, ma invece che allarmarmi, ne sono contenta. Mi spiace dirvi questo, ma è la verità 😪 Ho bisogno d’aiuto, ho bisogno del vostro supporto piú che mai.