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  • TEXTO COMPLETO NOS COMENTÁRIOS:
Eu também tenho medo de ganhar peso. E um dia esse medo foi tão grande que me deixou paralisada.
Tinham dias que eu...
  • TEXTO COMPLETO NOS COMENTÁRIOS: Eu também tenho medo de ganhar peso. E um dia esse medo foi tão grande que me deixou paralisada. Tinham dias que eu cuspia a minha medicação porque achava que comprimidos de remédios tinham calorias. Colocava horário e limitava quantidade de água porque para mim água ia me engordar. Só de ver outras pessoas comerem, eu achava que tinha engordado. Eu estava tão transtornada que quando sonhava que tinha comido eu acreditava que aquela comida do sonho tinha o poder de me engordar (...) “Ah como foi difícil chegar aonde você chegou, desde tão novinha você luta por isso, não vamos desistir agora né Belinha?” - essa voz, essa maldita voz da Ana que me assombra há tanto tempo que eu achava que já não podia viver sem ela. Eu deixei de comer na mesa com outras pessoas porque NA MESA NÃO DAVA PARA VIRAR O PRATO NA PRIVADA e dar descarga. Até que chegou um tempo em que eu sentia ela me abandonar quando eu precisava. Ana aonde você estava quando eu BERRAVA DE DOR no hospital? Ana cadê você para me dizer o que fazer quando o médico diz que minha situação é de novo de internação com sonda? Ana qual a sua explicação por VOCÊ TER FEITO A MINHA MELHOR AMIGA TER COMETIDO SUICÍDIO? Ana o médico disse que o meu corpo está consumindo o tecido dos meus órgãos. O MEU INTESTINO NÃO CONSEGUE MAIS SE CONTRAIR. E quando MEU CORAÇÃO NÃO CONSEGUIR MAIS SE CONTRAIR também? Ana... PORQUE VOCÊ FEZ ISSO COMIGO? Consegue entender? Desde os meus 13 anos ela esteve ao meu lado todo o tempo até quando eu não quis mas quando eu mais precisei ela apenas me disse “VOCÊ ESTÁ QUASE PERFEITA E AGORA EU VOU TE TER PARA SEMPRE”. Eu não abandonei a Ana... ela me abandonou. Ela me abandonou porque eu não aceitei ser toda dela. Quem sou eu sem a Ana? Do que eu gosto? Qual a minha comida preferida? Ela fala “NÃO” quando vou comer. Ela berra “GORDA” quando me olho no espelho. Ela ordena “MAIS” quando eu termino meus treinos. Você quer mesmo saber quem é a Ana? Então eu vou contar: a Ana..... SOU EU. Mas shhhh vamos falar baixo porque ela está nos escutando. -Ana é um codinome para a doença ANOREXIA NERVOSA (Esses são alguns trechos do texto que estará completo nos comentários)
  • 872 66 2 days ago
  • *Werbung* Das Oberteil ist übrigens auch von @lucieandleo ☺️ Nicht vergessen: Mit dem Code JULIAB10 spart ihr 10% auf euren Einkauf! #lucieandleo #...
  • *Werbung* Das Oberteil ist übrigens auch von @lucieandleo ☺️ Nicht vergessen: Mit dem Code JULIAB10 spart ihr 10% auf euren Einkauf! #lucieandleo #babefashion --- #Update Seit 1 1/2 Wochen bin ich in der Tagesklinik. Mit Prien hätte es zu lange gedauert (allerdings war das eine Fehlinformation und ich hätte doch schon im Dezember einen Platz bekommen), wobei ich ehrlich gesagt froh bin, dass es doch 'nur' die Tagesklinik ist, da ich dann nicht die ganze Zeit dort bin und in Prien hätte ich wahrscheinlich über Weihnachten nicht nach Hause gedurft und wenn dann auch nur eine Nacht. Versteht mich nicht falsch, Prien ist eine sehr gute Klinik und ich bin froh vor zwei Jahren dort gewesen zu sein, aber im Moment bin ich lieber in der Tagesklinik (auch SchönKlinik)! MTW Besonders die erste Woche war sehr schwierig, mit dem Essen hat es nicht so gut geklappt und der Bewegungsdrang war auch sehr stark. TWE Mit dem Essen ist es jetzt aber viel besser! Allerdings habe ich, obwohl der Gewichtsverlauf passt, Anwesenheitspflicht, also darf zwischen den Therapien nicht raus. MTW Trotz des guten Gewichtsverlauf, ist meine Ärztin, die auch die Oberärztin ist, noch etwas unsicher und sie hat immer noch eine Verlegung nach Prien im Hinterkopf für den Fall, dass es wieder schlechter wird. Aber das wird es nicht! TWE Meine größte Motivation gerade ist, dass ich über Weihnachten heim möchte, am liebsten vom 21.-26.12. Meine Sozialpädagogin in der WG meinte aber, dass ich wahrscheinlich erst am 23. fahren darf. Aber das ist besser als gar nicht! Auch wenn ich noch nicht am Ziel bin, hat die Tagesklinik mir schon etwas geholfen, der erste, und einer der wichtigsten, Schritt ist getan. Jetzt muss ich 'nur' weiter dran bleiben und das werde ich! Bis Ende Januar werde ich auf jeden Fall noch bleiben, vielleicht auch Mitte Februar, aber spätestens dann möchte ich wieder in die Schule gehen. (Teil 2 kommt im nächsten Post, eventuell aber erst morgen)
  • 75 5 14 hours ago
  • The first thing that came to mind when I was told I had osteoporosis was "Barbara, you just fucked yourself up"
I was in denial. I couldn't believe...
  • The first thing that came to mind when I was told I had osteoporosis was "Barbara, you just fucked yourself up" I was in denial. I couldn't believe that I had finally become "that person" that gets sick, that destroys her body, that loses the possibility to living a normal and wholesome life, all due to her eating disorder. I never felt like I could potentially be "a statistic". I couldn't digest the idea that I was very well becoming another number, another figure, an add on to the data, that eating disorders have the highest mortality rate in any given mental illness. I was shocked. I still feel like this is a nightmare I haven't woken up from. I swallowed hard, trying not to cry in that hospital bed I sat in in the ER when I got my x-ray results. I starred down at my trembling hands, my washed out jeans and cold feet. I couldn't let myself breathe. My heart was pounding too fast and my head hurt from the news, I was forgetting to inhale.  I was back at square one. The very same square I was put in over 10 years ago as I sat at the Montreal Children's Adolescent Clinic. "You have to gain weight" I had become such an actress at this point, "I knew," I replied.  Here I am today, within the very same box of no return. I have limited choices, no where to go but forward, and few options to feel any release.  I have to gain weight. I know. This time though I'm not bluffing. I'm not enacting Act 1 Scene 5 in the chronicles of What It's Like To Have An Eating Disorder, this time I am genuinely answering, believing, and even wanting to pursue this thing I have to do.  I have to gain weight. Fuck, I know this, I hate this, but I have to do it.  Weight restoration is the primary form of healing and stopping any further bone loss. By restoring one's weight back to a healthy range, one hopes that they resume menstruation so estrogen can be produced naturally. Estrogen is important because estrogen it helps our bone cells work when it comes to utilizing its molecular functions. Bone cells have two intracellular steroid receptors for estrogen, which in turn binds to the estrogen for various genes to become active. (Continued in comments)
  • 30 9 yesterday
  • « Sachez que vous ne guérirez jamais. Vous pouvez seulement espérer vivre mieux. »
Voilà les mots de la psychiatre lors de notre entretien vendredi...
  • « Sachez que vous ne guérirez jamais. Vous pouvez seulement espérer vivre mieux. » Voilà les mots de la psychiatre lors de notre entretien vendredi dernier. Je sais bien que ma vie est différente désormais. Mais je refuse de croire que je n’en sortirai jamais, je refuse d’accepter d’être hantée par ce démon jusqu’à la fin de mes jours. Sinon, autant mettre un terme à ce voyage dès à présent. Cette vie dominée par l’angoisse, les insomnies, le calcul incessant des calories, la voix de la culpabilité, ce contrôle obsessionnel, cette lutte contre soi, les autres, la liberté... N’est tout simplement pas une vie. La photo de gauche date de juin 2015. La photo de droite est de mars dernier. À aucun moment, je n’ai perdu mon sourire, ni cet espoir viscéral de retrouver une existence apaisée. Ça, la maladie n’a pas réussi à l’emporter. À tous les instants, je suis animée par cette rage de ne pas me laisser mourir. Je ne souhaite pas me bercer d’illusions, et me convaincre naïvement que tout sera comme avant. Et de toute les façons, ce n’est pas ce que je désire. Je dois apprendre à vivre autrement, pour m’épanouir au sein de cette société. Alors oui, je resterais probablement fragile. Mais j’aspire au bonheur. Je dois quitter cette bulle à la fois protectrice d’une réalité effrayante et destructrice de mon identité. Je me bats pour retrouver la liberté. #edrecovery #edwarrior #edfam #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexianervosarecovery #anafighter #fearfood #eatittobeatit #eatwellbewell #mangermieux #tca #recovery #anarecovery #anorexiementale
  • 107 31 yesterday
  • Trovare un modo per commentare questa foto è difficile. Ora che ho tempo di riflettere mi viene solo da pensare che ho paura di ritornare ad avere ...
  • Trovare un modo per commentare questa foto è difficile. Ora che ho tempo di riflettere mi viene solo da pensare che ho paura di ritornare ad avere un sorriso come quello di sinistra. Sono stati tre anni faticosi e lo sono ancora.. ma io non mollo.. mai .. ci deve essere una ragione a tutto ciò. Auguro a tutti voi un sorriso come quello di destra: quei sorrisi che vengono dal cuore Avanti tutta compagne DCA
  • 193 12 4 days ago
  • Exactly one year between these two pictures. The right was my work Christmas party last year, my first night out in over 2 years. I had convinced m...
  • Exactly one year between these two pictures. The right was my work Christmas party last year, my first night out in over 2 years. I had convinced myself I was better as I had just been discharged from hospital so thought I was ‘healthy’. I was so self-conscious and so cold that whole night and I just sat waiting to get home. The left is from last night, I’m having the best social life right now, loving getting dressed up and heading out with my friends, having (one too many) gins and dancing for hours💃🏼 recovery is the most amazing decision I have ever made, the energy and love for life I have right now is incredible❤️
  • 922 35 9:34 AM Dec 9, 2018

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  • #breakfast 😭😭 Tog även två mackor (pågen längtan) sen för att visa läkarna att jag ska bli utskriven men nu har jag PANIK!!! Vet inte hur jag ska...
  • #breakfast 😭😭 Tog även två mackor (pågen längtan) sen för att visa läkarna att jag ska bli utskriven men nu har jag PANIK!!! Vet inte hur jag ska hantera denna ångest, fan asså, orkar inte mer😭😭😭😭😭
  • 46 1 1 hours ago
  • Morning! Later I have my last therapy appointment until January, which I am upset about because I think this time of year is the time I need therap...
  • Morning! Later I have my last therapy appointment until January, which I am upset about because I think this time of year is the time I need therapy most, but I know I will get through it. Yesterday’s challenge was a gingerbread whip💞 Have a good day and stay strong xxxx
  • 69 6 2 hours ago
  • #supper I had Chicken Mince on a Bread Roll, Cheese, Cucumber and melted Peanut Butter on Apple
The rest of my family is having NACHOS😱😱 and I wa...
  • #supper I had Chicken Mince on a Bread Roll, Cheese, Cucumber and melted Peanut Butter on Apple The rest of my family is having NACHOS😱😱 and I was meant to have that with Chicken Mince but will I said no!! Mums like yes you have to but I reminded her that I hate chips! I think she was a little mad at me, I had the opportunity to challenge myself but yet again I stopped myself! I hate when I do that because I might like NACHOS! but I don't know because I haven't had them in ages and I didn't challenge myself. I am disappointed that I didn't do it😭 I went to the shops to get my medication but it cost $30!!! So I didn't get them. So instead I went in to Woolworth and bought a challenge for tomorrow and well I said that this is my medication 😂 I just laughed • • #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #recovery #edwarrior #anafighter #edrecovery #anxiety #anorexiarecoverymeal #edsoilder #edfigher #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior #anasucks #fightanorexia
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  • Давайте устроим небольшую игру?
Вы ответите на вопросики, которые я напишу
Ставите 1-2 лайка на мои последние публикации, а я полайкаю вас 💕💕
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  • Давайте устроим небольшую игру? Вы ответите на вопросики, которые я напишу Ставите 1-2 лайка на мои последние публикации, а я полайкаю вас 💕💕 ⭐ Любимый фрукт? Любимая книга? Любимый фильм? Любимый предмет (был, есть) ? Любимый праздник? Любимый цвет ? То, без чего ты не можешь прожить и дня? День который запомнился тебе на всю жизнь? Какой бы подарок сделал бы тебя действительно счастливой? ⭐ Ну что? Играем? 💕 Вот мои ответики 1. Всё вы знаете, что я безумно люблю бананы. Бананы - моя жизнь 💕 2. Их невероятно много. Есть как и русские, так и иностранные. Но вот больше всего мне вот прям нравится : Булгаков - "Мастер и Маргарита" , Стивен Кинг - "Оно", "Мизери", "Тёмная башня", "Зелёная миля". Касандра Клэр "Орудия смерти" 💕 3. Тут тоже очень сложный вопрос, но.. Я могу 24/7 пересматривать "Один дома", "НЯНЬКИ", "Спасатель Малибу", "Разлом Сан-Андреас", "Третий лишний " и тд 💕 4. Безумно любила русский язык и биологию. Ходила в школу даже тогда, когда болела. 5. Нет, это не новый год и не день рождения. Возможно у меня их даже нет. Да, мне нравится новогодняя атмосфера, но все же чем старше ты становишься, тем больше понимаешь то, что ты вырос 6. Обожаю бирюзовый, чёрный, белый, сиреневый цвет 💕 Просто с детства. А совсем недавно мне начал нравится розовый, ну или такой пурпурный 7.Не могу и дня без мелкой.. Вот правда.. Её не было 2 дня и я поняла то, как сильно я по ней скучала.. 8. Самый запоминающийся момент - это выпускной. Когда ты стоишь весь в слезах и понимаешь то, что ты действительно вырос и что теперь тебя ждёт совершенно другая жизнь 9. Меня бы сделал счастливой такой подарок :Все мои близкие люди счастливы, здоровье моё в норме. А еще - чтобы у меня был такой шанс, чтобы у меня был телепорт 😂И когда мои пупсики грустят, то я могла бы смело к ним телепортироваться и крепко-крепко обнять 💕
  • 65 12 3 hours ago
  • Afternoon snack is passionfruit yogurt with muesli, strawberries, papaya, pineapple, rockmelon and watermelon + chocolate almond milk 🍓🍈🍍🍉🥛 I ...
  • Afternoon snack is passionfruit yogurt with muesli, strawberries, papaya, pineapple, rockmelon and watermelon + chocolate almond milk 🍓🍈🍍🍉🥛 I got new muesli to try which is berry flavoured and is actually really nice 👍
  • 41 3 3 hours ago
  • видеть плохое во всем.

из всевозможных вариантов развития событий я уделяю внимание лишь негативным.

мой пессимизм иногда достигает апогея, затме...
  • видеть плохое во всем. из всевозможных вариантов развития событий я уделяю внимание лишь негативным. мой пессимизм иногда достигает апогея, затмевая реальный взгляд на вещи. это идет из детства, где маленькую меня всегда сопровождали неудачи. однако мне сейчас кажется, что те ситуации утрированы детским максимализмом. будучи ребенком любая трудная ситуация становится катастрофой. к слову, мне было как то стыдно два раза за день ходить в один и тот же магазин. и вечно приходилось прокручивать в голове диалог с продавцом, чтобы не ошибиться. но случалось это частенько. я так много упустила, опасаясь худшего итога, напрочь забывая о том, что путей развития как минимум два и что не все в этой жизни кончается плохо. сейчас я горю желанием исправить это. скинуть такой груз с плеч довольно заманчивая идея. думаю, что все получится. ◻◻◻ а как вы смотрите на жизнь? ◻◻◻ хорошего дня и отличного настроения. люблю~
  • 125 4 8 hours ago
  • 😟 Hey guys ... I'm so sorry for not being consistent with my eating but I can't fight. I just can't. I'll try my best this week but I can't promis...
  • 😟 Hey guys ... I'm so sorry for not being consistent with my eating but I can't fight. I just can't. I'll try my best this week but I can't promise anything. After I'll go back with my parents so it might get easier. And I'm sorry if my post aren't that long either. ---- 🍞 Dinner : Pork + one leak + one slice of whole-wheat bread (!!!) + one small portion of pâté (!!!!) + cream cheese (!!!) + mimolette cheese (!!!). (10PM) 😔 Yes again ... I didn't ate anything all day long until dinner. ---- 🍏 Dessert : One apple + fat-free yogurt + toffee pudding (!!!!) + one homemade cookie (!!!!) + one square of hazelnut and dark chocolate (!!!). (11PM) 😥 I finally finished all the toffee pudding I had at home ... and had one of my cookies !! ---- 🍪 Night snack : One homemade cookie (!!!!) + one slice of gingerbread (!!!) + one tangerine (unpictured) 😣 I was feeling ravenous and now my stomach hurts I'm so stupid ... ---- 😓 And I really do like you guys but every time you send a nice comment or a nice dm I don't know how to respond without being ungrateful ... because I'm in this dark period of time and I can't really feel better so ... I'm sorry ... Good night ⛼ #ed #edrecovery #recovery #ana #anorexia #anorexic #anorexianevrosa #ednos #recover #thinspo #fearfood #meals #food #anafighter #anawarrior #prorecovery #recoveryishard #anarecovery #edfighter #edwarrior #bodyimage #struggle #challenginged #fdoe #breakfast #lunch #dinner
  • 39 6 11 hours ago
  • Buonasera 😊 scusatemi se oggi non mi sono fatta tanto sentire, ma ho voluto staccare un po' dal profilo e riposarmi. Oggi a pranzo ho mangiato mol...
  • Buonasera 😊 scusatemi se oggi non mi sono fatta tanto sentire, ma ho voluto staccare un po' dal profilo e riposarmi. Oggi a pranzo ho mangiato molto poco😬 e stranamente i miei non mi hanno detto nulla🤔. Praticamente ho mangiato 4 piccole mazzancolle🍤, un po' di cavolo riccio🍃 al forno, una cappasanta🐚 e il pane. Poi mi sono buttata a letto🛌 e praticamente mi sono addormentata nel giro di 20 minuti. Oggi pomeriggio ho aperto un attimo gli occhi👀 ed ero lì titubante se alzarmi e fare lo spuntino o approfittarne per saltarlo, ma dopo poco mi sono alzata e ho mangiato 6 biscotti #🍪 #buonicosì della galbusera con un caffè al #ginseng . Poi mi sono ributtata a letto e alle 18:30 mio moroso mi ha fatto una sorpresa😍 è passato a salutarmi con un mazzo di 3 rose⚘⚘⚘e fiorellini bianchi 💮 e fogliette dorate 🌾. Abbiamo un po' chiacchierato in terrazza fumandoci una sigaretta🚬. Ieri sera era andato al compleanno di un nostro amico che aveva organizzato una grigliata🍖🥩 (che ovviamente ho rifiutato l'invito😒) e al ritorno ha lasciato la sua macchina lì e si è fatto accompagnare, perché aveva superato il limite🍷 per poter guidare. Infatti l'ho un po' sgridato in senso buono, ma lui ha esagerato con i messaggi e così ho chiuso whatsapp e stamattina ne abbiamo riparlato per messaggio. E così è venuto per scusarsi di come si era comportato e voleva salutarmi dato che per un'altra settimana non ci vedremo😥. Ci amiamo tanto 💗 e gli ho fatto capire che il problema non sono i suoi amici o quante volte esce, ma che alcune volte sembra che non sia tanto responsabile della sua vita, perché si fa condizionare dagli amici. Stasera ho cenato con una #vellutatadizucca #🎃 e i crostini, poi mezza porzione di polipo #🐙 lessato con il limone #🍋 e un po' di carote #🥕 julienne. Infine ho mangiato anche 3 noci #🥜 e una piccola fetta di panfocaccia, che nemmeno mi piaceva, ma per fortuna c'erano l'uvetta e le mandorle che hanno dato un po' più di sapore. Buonanotte tesori belli😘 a domani!
  • 30 3 12 hours ago
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I’m not going to sugarcoat things and be all like “ oh recovery win yay “ because the truth is things are really really tough. I went out f...
  • Ptw - - I’m not going to sugarcoat things and be all like “ oh recovery win yay “ because the truth is things are really really tough. I went out for tea and got the safe option of soup , I’m not even gonna lie and say it was good because it fucking wasn’t. It was torture sitting there and eating this whilst my family had burgers 😔anorexia sucks man , I’m sorry for not being strong. I’ve hit rock bottom
  • 64 10 12 hours ago
  • Breakfast is 2 egg frittata with chicken, goats cheese, pumpkin, zucchini, mushrooms, tomatoes and spinach + berocca and green tea 🍳🥒🍅🍄🎃🧀🍵 m...
  • Breakfast is 2 egg frittata with chicken, goats cheese, pumpkin, zucchini, mushrooms, tomatoes and spinach + berocca and green tea 🍳🥒🍅🍄🎃🧀🍵 mum is putting goats cheese in every second frittata so i keep the challenge in as everyday was a little to challenging so I’ll start with every second and work my way up 👍
  • 82 1 12 hours ago
  • I give you my ❤
Bradychardic even after 3 coffees and 12 h work
  • I give you my ❤ Bradychardic even after 3 coffees and 12 h work
  • 19 3 13 hours ago
  • good morniinnnn ⛅️ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⚠️ PTW: 
lately i’ve been having some really loud ed thoughts telling me i didn’t get thin enough to deserve recover...
  • good morniinnnn ⛅️ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⚠️ PTW: lately i’ve been having some really loud ed thoughts telling me i didn’t get thin enough to deserve recovery. of course i know i deserve recovery regardless of how big my ed makes me think i am, but it makes it so hard for me to want to eat more when ana’s telling me i don’t need to. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ sorry for the negativity today but that’s just a small update on where i’m at atm, it’s been really tough lately especially with christmas and birthdays coming up this week, i’m going to be seeing some family members that stress me out and give me comments about weight as well as being forced to eat a lot of food which stresses me out 10x more. i know i will get through it all with my head high, and i’ll let you all know how i’m feeling later in the week closer to the dates 😬
  • 102 11 13 hours ago
  • Veggie balls with salad by IKEA.

Eating out is always a challenge for me, because portions seem too big and ingredients are unknown, but that's tr...
  • Veggie balls with salad by IKEA. Eating out is always a challenge for me, because portions seem too big and ingredients are unknown, but that's true life isn't it? It may be hard but it's the only way to get free! And there's always hope when we remember WHY we want and need to recover 💪😍✔️❤️
  • 31 4 13 hours ago
  • Just a cheeky pic of me breaking out of ED’s grasp with each habit I break and each rule I challenge 😎🙈
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  • Just a cheeky pic of me breaking out of ED’s grasp with each habit I break and each rule I challenge 😎🙈 ------------------------------------------ This weekend has once again been transformative. Yesterday and today I made a big step, one of them being breaking a certain series of routines and YES of course I’m uneasy however recovery never came easily. ------------------------------------------ It’s important to challenge yourself and it’s more important to not doubt yourself whilst doing so. Also you don’t need to ‘plan’ to challenge yourself. If you feel a flicker of ‘oh fuck, I could just stop that, or change that...’ - THAT’S YOUR INTUITION GUIDING YOU!!! And your intuition should often, if not always, be listened to because it’s a fundamental part of your personal journey through life. ------------------------------------------ Even if you don’t believe the spiritual side of it, you have an inner guide and an inner voice whom likes to pop up every now and again and give you a nudge. Don’t shrug it off because I’ll tell you, it doesn’t go away. Sometimes you have to tell it to be patient and wait a little while however it will always be a part of your journey through life. ------------------------------------------ It can be hard to hear among the demons of mental illness however it doesn’t fade away forever. ------------------------------------------ And when you begin to regain the reigns of recovery, you’ll hear it much more. Each routine I break and each habit I combat, the gut feeling gets stronger each day. Be brave. Believe you can, and you will. 💓 xxx #bethebiggerbully
  • 323 23 14 hours ago
  • Hej. Witam wszystkich. Dziś byłam u kuzyna na bierzmowaniu. Oczywiście po, był poczęstunek. Dokładnie ciastko upieczone przez naszą kochaną babcię....
  • Hej. Witam wszystkich. Dziś byłam u kuzyna na bierzmowaniu. Oczywiście po, był poczęstunek. Dokładnie ciastko upieczone przez naszą kochaną babcię. Miałam oczywiście wyrzuty sumienia, ale głupio było mi odmówić. Zjadłam i co? Świat się nie zawalił. ~ Wiele z Was boi się jeść, bo wydaje się, że świat legnie w gruzach od jednego kawałka ciasta lub czegoś słodkiego. Nie. Nie przytyjecie też od razu 10kg lub nawet 1 przez to, jeśli będziecie jedli ze zdrowym umiarem. Zbliżają się święta, a tym samym dużoo dobrego jedzonka, prawda? Nie bójcie się tego. Nie bójcie się kalorii. To do niczego nie prowadzi. Przełamujcie się Kochani. Jesteście silni. Możecie wszystko. Trochę samozaparcia i osiągniecie to co chcecie 💞. Trzymam za Was gorąco kciuki. Nie poddawajcie się. ~ Gdybyś miał* gorszy moment lub po prostu chęć, aby z kimś pogadać napisz do mnie. Jestem otwarta na wszelkie wiadomości, rozmowy o wszystkim. Także nie bójcie, ani nie wstydźcie się🔥 ~ Zapraszam również do śledzenia mojego profilu, obserwowania go oraz do komentowania i serduszkowania postów ❤️. Warto odwiedzić wyróżnione relacje zawarte w profilu, a także śledzić codzienne story 💪❣️ ~ ~~ #newpost #newbeginning #started #power #polishgirl #fit #anafighter #anorexia #bulimia #edfighter #edrecovery #depression #depressionrecovery #trytobehealthly #happiness #goodvibes #goodinsta #sfs #golike #gofollow #goflw #dreams #fight #smile #motivation #pilates
  • 46 2 14 hours ago
  • Am Donnerstag hatte ich eine Essensbefreiung und bin mit meiner Mama Pizza essen gewesen 😋
Die war so verdammt lecker, ich werde demnächst auf jed...
  • Am Donnerstag hatte ich eine Essensbefreiung und bin mit meiner Mama Pizza essen gewesen 😋 Die war so verdammt lecker, ich werde demnächst auf jeden Fall nochmal dorthin gehen und noch eine andere probieren! Diese hier war mit Spinat, Knoblauch, Mozzarella und Kürbis 😍 - Jetzt sitze ich mit der Kabi-Gang noch im Fernsehraum und schau Cinderella 💖 - Ansonsten wünsche ich euch allen einen super Start in die neue Woche! Traut euch über eure Grenzen zu gehen, seit mutig und entscheidet euch fürs Leben und haltet an euren Träumen fest ❤️ -
  • 151 19 14 hours ago
  • #nightsnack was this and a @barebells 😍😍 Soooo good but really hard! Didn’t ate any afternoonsnack so that’s why I ate all of this fkn food😔😣😭
  • #nightsnack was this and a @barebells 😍😍 Soooo good but really hard! Didn’t ate any afternoonsnack so that’s why I ate all of this fkn food😔😣😭
  • 74 3 14 hours ago
  • Good evening guyys ✨
Thievish going to be my amazing #nightsnack today 😏 The whole package of those white chocolate covered cinnamon biscuit balls...
  • Good evening guyys ✨ Thievish going to be my amazing #nightsnack today 😏 The whole package of those white chocolate covered cinnamon biscuit balls, a ‚KitKat Chunky‘ with salted caramel fudge flavor (YAAS, finally found them 😜), a package of the ‚Milky Way‘ crispy rolls and a ‚Müller‘ roasted almond flavored rice pudding 😍 Perfect nightsnack to end up this nice weekend and to start into the last week of school before Christmas holidays 🎅🏻 Today was a pretty nice Sunday. In the morning I studied a bit for my English pre-a-level (6 hour exam tomorrow 😭) and in the afternoon I met a friend at the gym 🙃 Now it‘s time for a cozy evening after an AMAZING dinner (yees, tried out a new recipe which turned out so freaking goooood 🤤) What did you do on this third Sunday of Advent? 🎅🏻 I Hope you had a nice day as well and are all fine 😇 Hasta mañana chicos and ALWAYS STAY STRONG 💪🏻 Bye bye honeybees 🍯🐝
  • 491 12 14 hours ago
  • *Werbung* Das Oberteil ist übrigens auch von @lucieandleo ☺️ Nicht vergessen: Mit dem Code JULIAB10 spart ihr 10% auf euren Einkauf! #lucieandleo #...
  • *Werbung* Das Oberteil ist übrigens auch von @lucieandleo ☺️ Nicht vergessen: Mit dem Code JULIAB10 spart ihr 10% auf euren Einkauf! #lucieandleo #babefashion --- #Update Seit 1 1/2 Wochen bin ich in der Tagesklinik. Mit Prien hätte es zu lange gedauert (allerdings war das eine Fehlinformation und ich hätte doch schon im Dezember einen Platz bekommen), wobei ich ehrlich gesagt froh bin, dass es doch 'nur' die Tagesklinik ist, da ich dann nicht die ganze Zeit dort bin und in Prien hätte ich wahrscheinlich über Weihnachten nicht nach Hause gedurft und wenn dann auch nur eine Nacht. Versteht mich nicht falsch, Prien ist eine sehr gute Klinik und ich bin froh vor zwei Jahren dort gewesen zu sein, aber im Moment bin ich lieber in der Tagesklinik (auch SchönKlinik)! MTW Besonders die erste Woche war sehr schwierig, mit dem Essen hat es nicht so gut geklappt und der Bewegungsdrang war auch sehr stark. TWE Mit dem Essen ist es jetzt aber viel besser! Allerdings habe ich, obwohl der Gewichtsverlauf passt, Anwesenheitspflicht, also darf zwischen den Therapien nicht raus. MTW Trotz des guten Gewichtsverlauf, ist meine Ärztin, die auch die Oberärztin ist, noch etwas unsicher und sie hat immer noch eine Verlegung nach Prien im Hinterkopf für den Fall, dass es wieder schlechter wird. Aber das wird es nicht! TWE Meine größte Motivation gerade ist, dass ich über Weihnachten heim möchte, am liebsten vom 21.-26.12. Meine Sozialpädagogin in der WG meinte aber, dass ich wahrscheinlich erst am 23. fahren darf. Aber das ist besser als gar nicht! Auch wenn ich noch nicht am Ziel bin, hat die Tagesklinik mir schon etwas geholfen, der erste, und einer der wichtigsten, Schritt ist getan. Jetzt muss ich 'nur' weiter dran bleiben und das werde ich! Bis Ende Januar werde ich auf jeden Fall noch bleiben, vielleicht auch Mitte Februar, aber spätestens dann möchte ich wieder in die Schule gehen. (Teil 2 kommt im nächsten Post, eventuell aber erst morgen)
  • 75 5 14 hours ago
  • Having anxiety is overtaking my life right now. 
Eating is okay, it’s getting easier by the day, but my anxiety is getting worse. 
Christmas is get...
  • Having anxiety is overtaking my life right now. Eating is okay, it’s getting easier by the day, but my anxiety is getting worse. Christmas is getting so close, this year is ending and I don’t know if I’m ready. This year has been the scariest, best, worst and most eventful yet boring year of my life. I have completely changed my perspective on everything, and weekends/holidays seem terrifying for me. Honestly, I’m dreading this holiday. 2 years ago, I would be excited to finish school and have Christmas, but now I’m just scared. I’m not sure what I’m scared of, but the fear is there. 2019 is a new year, a chance to put this all behind me. I can get through Christmas. I’m petrified, but I will be okay. Restricting is not an option, and never will be. There are other ways to cope with this There are other ways. I will be okay Anxiety, please leave me alone now thanks
  • 171 4 15 hours ago
  • This winter baby is glad it’s finally cold enough to wear beanies ⛄️🙊❄️ Kinda look like a plum here and I did my makeup in the dark so sorry if my...
  • This winter baby is glad it’s finally cold enough to wear beanies ⛄️🙊❄️ Kinda look like a plum here and I did my makeup in the dark so sorry if my brows offend you 😭😂 For once I don’t have any cute food photos to post 📸 I’m slowly but surely getting my appetite and mojo back 💪🏻 It wasn’t a deliberate slip in eating, my mood just affected my appetite but that’s okay, I’m not going to be angry with myself because no one can expect every day to be a good one, even if you’re not struggling with negative ed thoughts anymore. No one has a good day everyday 💖 I plan on being more active now I’m starting to feel better 👀 I never want to share negative, but now that I’m feeling more positive I want to remind everyone that it really is okay not to be okay. I might not be 100% okay, but I’m okay with that. It’s completely acceptable to have weeks where you don’t want to get out of bed, where you have no appetite, where your anxiety is sky high or where you cry at the smallest things with no idea why 💔 Just as long as you take care of yourself and remind yourself that it will pass 🦋 Hope you all are well 😘 • • • #anorexiarecovery #recovery #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #anafighter #edfighter #ed #edfighter #edwarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #recover #recovery #positive #mentalhealth
  • 447 5 15 hours ago
  • Protein bar and a cookie for #nightsnack today! I had a lovely day with my friends today and am super exhausted! I even met a raindeer!!!!! His nam...
  • Protein bar and a cookie for #nightsnack today! I had a lovely day with my friends today and am super exhausted! I even met a raindeer!!!!! His name is Sven and he’s pretty adorable 🥰
  • 78 5 16 hours ago
  • Still waiting to hear from the mental health team... Tomorrow I'm going to my gp for my two week check up on my sertraline and I've lost an over al...
  • Still waiting to hear from the mental health team... Tomorrow I'm going to my gp for my two week check up on my sertraline and I've lost an over all 1 kg since I last saw her which for me is too little but I guess she won't be amused?? I stopped counting calories but I'm back at it because I did gain some weight last week and I couldn't bear the felling of not having control. This is quite silly because on one side I want to recover and I'm reading my books and doing my therapy journal exercises, watching pro recovery videos and Instagram accounts and what not and on the other hand I'm triggering myself af on purpose, obsessively doing body checking behaviors, restricting, obsessing over weight loss... I don't know. Whatever.
  • 17 3 16 hours ago
  • Cmon guys..I don't think I need to explain this snack?😂
Peanut butter forever has my heart also one thing I do,even if it's higher calorie spread,...
  • Cmon guys..I don't think I need to explain this snack?😂 Peanut butter forever has my heart also one thing I do,even if it's higher calorie spread,I go for 100% peanuts,no sugar or salt. It's sooo good for you,it has a lot of healthy fats which we expecially as a woman really need,it's from extremely importance for our body and hormones.I do it with 2 rice cakes (30 cals) I can't eat any rice cake,I'm really picky about them 🤭 As I mentioned in my 1 photo ever,next year,basically now 2019 I'm going for fitness trainer it's something I'm really pashioned about and..what eating disorder made me do is...I would replace healthy and yummy food with fatty and sugary. Doesn't make sense?? 🤷 Well...if my healthy snack has 240 calories and my unhealthy bar of chocolate has 180...guess what my eating disorder picked?? Yes...it's chocolate bar. I really try and when I have doubts in eating higher calorie even if it's healthy I shift my focus from calories to..it's healthy,your body can work good with it,your heart will thank you. Please don't send any hate,it's what makes me happy and it's one part my eating disorder took away from me. I'm getting it back 💪💙 Wishing you all happy and peaceful rest of the Sunday ❤️ Monday is around the corner..let's kick ana little harder this week. Love 💙❤️🧡 #anorexianervosa #anorexia #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorder tingdisorderrecovery #anafighter #anawarrior #edfighter #edwarrior #prorecovery #realrecovery #recovery #recovering #edfam #anafam #edfamily #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #recoverywarrior #eatittobeatit #eatittobeatit #eattolive
  • 41 1 16 hours ago
  • #dinner 😔 Blev bråk om att jag skulle ha potatis till men vägrar. Blivit så svårt nu när jag inte ätit det på några dagar😓
  • #dinner 😔 Blev bråk om att jag skulle ha potatis till men vägrar. Blivit så svårt nu när jag inte ätit det på några dagar😓
  • 85 3 16 hours ago
  • Huch schon der 3. Advent fast vorbei... Die Zeit rinnt.. 😄📆
Gestern hab ich mit meinem Freund einen richtigen shopping Marathon hingelegt. Und wi...
  • Huch schon der 3. Advent fast vorbei... Die Zeit rinnt.. 😄📆 Gestern hab ich mit meinem Freund einen richtigen shopping Marathon hingelegt. Und wir haben es geschafft: er hatte noch so gut wie keine Geschenke für seine Familie/ Verwandtschaft und jetzt haben wir ALLES erledigt. 😊 Ich hab die Geschenke für meine Familie ja schon seit Wochen eingepackt im Schlafzimmer liegen, aber bei Männern läuft sowas glaub ich anders... 😶 Also auf ins Getümmel! 😂 Anders als erwartet, wars auch sehr entspannt und richtig lustig. Wir sind nicht, wie alle andren ins nächste shopping center (da halt ichs nämlich zur Zeit absolut nicht aus), sondern in ne kleinere Stadt, die aber alles an Geschäften zu bieten hat und noch dazu kaum Leute. Sozusagen V.I.P. shopping ohne Menschenmassen.💪 Nach 2,5 Stunden hatten wir alles erledigt. Danach haben wir uns Muffin und Kaffee to go geholt und sind dort ne Runde spazieren gegangen und haben anschließend noch fürs Abendessen eingekauft. 🛒 Wir haben wraps gemacht. Gefüllt mit Falafeln, Spinat, Paprika, Tomate, oliven, sourcream, Feta Käse, und Mais. Das ganze dann noch im Ofen überbacken. Ein Traum sag ich euch! 😋😍 Zwar nicht unbedingt "leicht" (in jeglicher Hinsicht), aber ich fands so super lecker, dass mir die Kalorien etc völlig egal waren 😊
  • 32 1 16 hours ago
  • hoping this pic doesn’t wreck my theme buttt here’s my pumpkin gnocchi with pepitas and feta 😍🙌🏼 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
gnocchi is one of my fa...
  • hoping this pic doesn’t wreck my theme buttt here’s my pumpkin gnocchi with pepitas and feta 😍🙌🏼 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ gnocchi is one of my favourite foods atm which is so odd bc i used to hate it!! i really challenged myself with this lunch because i had 2 servings (which was really hard for me as i still get caught up in correct serving sizes/ portioning), AND i topped it with the pepitas + feta!! they were completely my choice and i didn’t have to add them if i didn’t want to, but i wanted to spice it up and make it not look boring so i added them!
  • 87 10 2 days ago
  • same post different day, i know i posted the same meal yesterday but oh well it was that good so i’m having it again 😽

anyway tho does anyone hav...
  • same post different day, i know i posted the same meal yesterday but oh well it was that good so i’m having it again 😽 anyway tho does anyone have any really bomb dinner or lunch (even breakfast) recipes they can send me? cos i’m keen on trying new thingsss so whatever it is if it’s a curry, pasta, soup, stir fry whatever i really wanna know what your fav go to meal is !!
  • 123 14 3 days ago