"I want to take back that first time I picked up the pipe.⠀
Thinking it was only a one time thing, thinking it was only for that night ⠀
Well I was far from being right ⠀
Nearly 2 years later I’m still hooked to that pipe and it’s never left my mind or my sight. ⠀
Mum I guess you were right, the days do turn into nights, and the people you meet aren’t sweet and nice, they’re vicious and they bite. ⠀
So you wanna know what it’s like for me to get high? ⠀
Well I’ll finally tell you and reveal all my lies. ⠀
It makes me feel sad, and it makes me feel sober.⠀
And every time I smoke it my heart grows colder and colder ⠀
It used to be once in a while ⠀
Back when I didn’t rely on it, back when I still used to smile ⠀
But slowly my addiction grew more and more⠀
It’s turned me into a whore, with all of my morals flying straight out the door. ⠀
It’s made me and my family so incredibly poor. ⠀
It has literally ripped my soul out from its core. ⠀
And now this is my life every single day, I can’t begin to tell you the mess that I have made.”⠀
I wrote this on 12/12/2017.⠀
I was at the end of the road with my addiction with ice and had hit so many rock bottoms I didn’t want to hit anymore.⠀
I wanted to be happy again, and I knew I couldn’t do that through relying on a substance.⠀
I took myself to a rehab and decided I wanted to change my life and become the person I was before I picked up.⠀
Through hard work, the rooms of AA and NA, lots of love and support, vigorous honesty and self love and care, I made it to 1 year clean off Ice today. Something I never thought I’d be able to do once I started using.⠀
My life now doesn’t compare to my life on drugs, I am happy, I am loved, I am blessed, and I am sober. I wouldn’t change this life for the world.⠀
Wow, thank you @tessriana for sharing your poem and journey with us! It is truly inspiring!! Congratulations on 1+ year! We're wishing you many many more! 🙏💙
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